all alone.

So now that I live alone, I am lonely.. but I have been able to eat some what better, and I have to walk up and down stairs to get home.. I thought I would work out more, but I dont have time.. I am working 7 days a week, and am still working on getting the apt all set up and boxes put away, which is not easy when you have no where to put them.. I have been feeling very alone lately... I was hanging out with a girl from work, but not so much now, we just work different days and its hard.. I have no place to go to meet people, and if I did, when would I have the time? I miss Cali, there are lots of people in cali to meet.. I miss hanging out with my bff.. I just want to figure out my life..

My life uncomplicating..

Well, I am in my apt, and I think that my life will start to become alot less complicated.. I can do my own thing anytime I want, have people over if I want. I can clean it if I want, or not.. I can leave my undies laying around all over the place!! I can cook if I want or just eat a bowl of cereal!! I will still get to see Landen twice a week, Ill be baby sitting him 2 times a week for 2 months :) We will go swimming and play and watch movies and have a great time!! I am super excited!! Had to spend $200 at wal-mart today on crap to cook and eat on.. I like having my own place but its expensive!!

life...

I am finally moving into an apt, its small but clean.. I think I am going to quit the second job anyway, the 3-5 hours a week is not worth the money, the gas to drive into town cost more. I am lonely and miss people in cali!! I am glad I have made a friend here, it makes it a little better.. I wish I could meet a guy, but I kinda am glad I havent.... I dont need the drama.. so all in all I am alive, and content in my life..

never

Nothing ever goes right for me!!! I didnt get the apt, I am still living with me sister. I am not getting full time at work, and I am not going to be able to quit the 2nd job... I just need to quit both and become the flight attendant like I wanted to..

sadness..

first of all sorry its been a while... I didnt move into my apt.. as it was roach infested.. I am looking for a new place now.. I am done with the spring semester, summer time is here!!! My mom is coming out to visit us in 2 weeks, for 2 weeks, its going to be long 2 weeks of doing alot of activities and trying to fit things in between working 2 jobs. I am losing alot of weight down almost 15lbs (thank you weight watchers)...

from nothing..

So I move into my new in 2 days.. I have to first go in and clean it to my standards cause we all know that the landlord is not going to do a great job of cleaning it. I am going to steam clean the couches and have to do some scrubbing of the floors, and the bathroom!! thats gonna be a chore!! I am starting from scratch, I have nothing.. well I just bought some stuff yesterday!! I bought some pots and pans, some plates and forks and some other small stuff... I went with pink and orange! I want to go bright!! everything in there right now is brown and brown is ugly so I need colors!! if you want to send me something for my new place that would be great :) I need it all!!

a little nervous

Well, I have never actually lived alone.. I am trying to get an apt and I have never done that alone. I have always had a roommate, lived with a bf or lived with family.. so I will be venturing out, getting my very own place and going to do things my own way!! decorate how I want to decorate, clean the way I want, when I want or dont if I dont want! I am going to be able to sleep in, or stay up all night, have a friend over if I want and not have to worry about who will be there cause Ill know that NOONE will be there but me!! I just got the call!! gonna go sign some papers!!!