change

sometimes you just want a change... right now thats how I feel.. I might be losing my job soon.. maybe a move is in my near future.. Ill get a crap job waitressing since it seems to be the only good thing I am good at any more.. that or Ill marry some rich guy to take care of me.. why cant life just be easy? why am I a wandering spirit? why cant I just stay in one place?

I have freinds

get over it! yes some are girls, some are guys.. some are straight some are gay! I dont care, we are just friends.. nothing more.. I care bout you.. I dont care who thinks we shouldnt be friends.. I will be your friend! those who think I shouldnt, I dont give a flying duck!

deceitfulness

why do people betray the ones they care about? every one is full of deceit, lies, and cons. If you want to talk to me dont lie, dont be deceitful, and dont try to con your way out of the situation you put your self in.. This goes for guys, girls, friends, and family. I am going to tell you how it is, if you dont like it, walk away, please extend the same courtesy to me. I am a good person, and you can be too...

being sick

I so hate being sick!! I hate the way I feel, the food I eat, and the way I sleep... Have you ever noticed that comforting foods are so not good for you? when I am sick, I dont want chicken soup.. I want some bread, cheese, fattening things.. I get lazy, and dont work out like I should.. I had strep 2 weeks ago, and now a sinus infection... I think I have gained some weight this week... better get my butt into gear this next week to lose it... and need to go to the store and get me some more healthy food..

cali

I get to go to cali!! I am so excited! I leave in less then 24 hours! I will get to see friends!! I dont want to do the other stuff... but if that is what I have to do to make it to cali Ill deal with it... I just hope its all over and done with quickly and hassle free! wish I was going for longer, wish I could see more friends.. oh well Ill get to see the important people..

wishing

I wish I was rich, non single, had my life together, and things were not complicated. I wish I could see what was to come in the future for me, so I could just know that all of this is going to be worth the crap I am going thru now... I wish I had a job I like to do, better yet one I just made enough money to live off of. I wish I was close to my best friend and I could just see her all the time.. I wish I didnt have the choices I have now. I wish it were simple, I wish it were different, I wish it wasnt me..

bored

I am bored with things the way they are going.. I feel like I need a change.. I get this way every 6 months or so and I up and move across the country when I can. I dont want to move this time, so that is good news for my family.. I am happy I get to see my family every few days, and I am glad Ill be able to be with them for the holidays coming up.. so why am I so anxious for something to happen? Is it that I need to find me a guy? a new job? I dont know but something has to happen.. and soon