Me time!

I had a mental break this weekend, and I think I have figured out why. I think there are 2 things I really need to be doing in my day to day life to improve my health, mentally and physically. The first thing I am going to start doing is I need to run, 3 times a week which will give me some regularity in working out, and increase my endorphins and my mood. (also making me skinnier so then in turn happier!) I am also going to start setting aside 1 weekend a month (or 6 weeks at most) aside to go do something new, something out of town (doesn't have to be far). I will look up some touristy things, talk to friends that have lived here for years, get ideas and then make the plans.. I think it is very important for me to do this so I am not just sitting at home or work day after day. so please share with me some ideas you might have for me to try!

Quit Smoking!

I Have made up my mind! I am finally ready! I quit smoking, my last one was on Jan 6th. I am officially 5 days smoke free! I made it past the 3 day mark, I am coming up on the 7 day mark soon! I dont ever want a smoke again! I already feel so much more healthy! I can now focus more on my weight loss plan! I can get my butt out side and work out! (and dont forget to watch the vlog (http://youtu.be/EjOTUQrZB4o) or read about it on my shared blog at www.thefitnesssisters.blogspot.com We would love to have you come by and say HI! ask us questions about our journey!

2013 renewal

As I sit here thinking about 2012 and my life, I think that I didn't get out and do much.. I worked, and I spent some time with my nephew, but that was all I really did. with 2013 here, I would like to set the goal of just getting out and doing more, learning something new. I would like to be more active in the community, take some fun classes, maybe piano, cooking, something. I am also committing to making the choice to eat healthy, not just diet,  but completely change the way I eat.. I want to start looking up at least one new recipe a week to try when I dont work. I am going to walk/run at least 4 times a week. I am just going to be a better person in 2013! this is my year to achieve the things I want in life!  If you want to see some of the changes happen check out thefitnesssisters.blogspot.com or https://www.facebook.com/TheFitnessSisters

LASIK surgery

For all of those who are thinking about I would highly recommend it! I had the procedure done yesterday. It was very easy and simple! Here is the whole story.... I went in for the initial consultation, watched some video's on how it works, and what the pro's and con's are of it. I then went back the next week, for the pre-op, it was a normal eye exam, with a few extra tests and pictures of the eye. It was very interesting to see the pictures of my eyes all up close and personal. The next step is preparing for the surgery, no contacts or make up for 3 days before procedure. The morning of the procedure I got to the office, they greeted me with a Valium, and then I waiting.. I walked back into the exam room, laid down, and got all comfy.. They calibrated the laser machine, which helped get used to the sound you will here. They covered my left eye, and put numbing drops in my right eye, and propped it open. They then had me stare at a green light, and lined the laser up nice and straight to my eye. Then comes the suction cup to the eye, it was strange feeling and uncomfortable, then there is the sound it makes, that is the scariest sound... it is a slicing sound, yes this is them cutting the flap of your eye open, but you dont feel it, just hear the buzzing of it. The suction comes off, you keep staring at green light, red light moves around lasering your eyes, this last all of 30 seconds to a minute. when that is over, the doctor has a small spongy thing on a stick, you watch her (yes you can see it happening) place the flap back in place, and rub some ointment onto your eye. She waits another 30 seconds to a minute for flap to seal into place (enough you wont blink it out of place). puts more drops in to eye. you then close that eye, and start with the left. The only difference is the suction part of procedure is more intense for the second eye, the nurse held my arm, but I still did a lil twitch. After the doc is done with the second eye, you slowly get up and go to another room. In that room the doc looks at your eyes, makes sure it looks good, (at this point the numbing starts to wear of and your eyes start to itch). The nurse gave me 4 different drops and explained how to use them all. one you use just twice, one for the nap when you get home and once before bed that night. the lubricating drops you put in every hour for 24 hours if your awake. The other 2, an antibiotic and a steroid (to promote quick healing) you do 4 times a day for 7 days. they also give you sunglasses to wear. My vision was blurry, but I could see better then I could without glasses the day before. It just looked like I was looking thru a fish tank. Now, my suggestion get home as quick as you can. I had a 2 hour horrible drive home. My eyes became very itchy, and being in the sun (in the car) made it a whole lot worse, they sun glasses helped, but it wasnt until I got home that I could keep my eyes open for more then 3-5 seconds. I took my nap, and when I woke up every thing was great! Very little blurring, my vision was great, with a few fuzzy or blurry spits here and there. I was able to drive about 7 hours after the procedure. I still rested and didnt do anything. The next day (today) I went to work for a few hours, then off to the post op.. They tested my vision and I am seeing at a 20/20 already. I still have a few lil itchy moments thru out the day, but they said that could be for the next month, and my vision may even improve as well in the next month. Ill let you all know how my next week is..

Make or break!

Well it is about to be made or break... I guess you can always count on something big to push out the best and worst in a person... whats going to happen is all up in the air now.. It can either go one way or the other. There is no going back..

How do you know?

How do you know when things are  going well, or just you keep getting put on the back burner.. How do you know when your in a relationship or just dating? how do you know if your getting serious or just things are going slow? how do you know how fast to move, or how slow? how do you know if you should try to just give up? how do you know if they are the one?

Waiting

Waiting is not fun! Have you ever had to wait for something, anything.. I hate waiting for everything.. I am the least patient person there is.. Have to wait for test results, the end of the book, the end of the movie.. I always feel like I have to read the last page of the book about half way thru the book.. Even when its not my stuff I am waiting for.. I hate waiting! I want to just speed up time and find out.. Lets build a time machine to go look in the future!

cant say no!

Why cant I say no?? what cant I say no to? CANDY, chocolate, caramel, ice cream... anything sweet! I need to say no... I gained 5 lbs back this week... that is alot to gain in a week! I cant believe I did it.. I had been doing so good, lost almost 40 lbs just to start gaining it back... I need to start working it out.. I need to get my self back into a routine, and buckle down.. I need to just bust my butt (literally) I did some strength training tonight.. and walked 30 min today at lunch.. if only I could do this every day...

funk

I am in a funk... I need to go on a year sabatical. I want to to just leave this world for a while. Leave and not have to talk to or deal with any one unless I want to see them! I Hate that things are not going the way I want them to be going. I hate that I am not the nice sweet person that every one expects me to be.. I hate that I have to pretend I am a nice person.. I am mean and I want to be mean.. I want to be able to just do the things I like to do and not have to work or worry about money and pay my bills.. I want to just fast forward to something better.. I don't feel like my life is worth anything.. The only thing keeping me going right now is the encouragement I am getting from my best friend... She helps me with so much in my life, and I would not have anything if it wasn't for her! I am hoping things turn around soon... that is all..

date...

I went on a date.. seems like I have gone on one after another.. but I finally have gone on one that wasnt bad.. I enjoyed talking to him. He was nice.. He didnt try to sleep with me.. We sat for almost 4 hours talking and just having a good time. I dont think I have enjoyed talking to a guy this much in a long time..

21 day challenge is over

The 21 day challenge is over, and I lost 3 lbs I am only 18 lbs from my goal weight... I am very excited to see the results so far.. I can not believe I used to say "oh Im not that fat" but looking back at the pics.. Damn I was that fat!!! I cant wait to see what I look like when I get down to what I want to be at.

you can also look at the before and after pics and video updates at...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qKH4vMfbnSE

21day challenge!!

I am doing a 21 day Challenge!! Today is day 1... I am only 10-20lbs from my goal weight, and after getting fat again from the holidays, me and Megmarkey are kick starting our diets back in to high gear! We are tracking our Calories, and watching our carb and protein intake making our priority veggies and fruit! We are also videoing our progress so watch us on youtube.com search for megmarkey3. We are making a point to exercise at least 10 times in the 21 days, and getting our butts off the couch! it feels great!

grinch

I am the grinch.. I dont like christmas this year.. its stupid and I dont want to do it... I dont want to go to see my family.. I want to go to cali.. I want people to understand that I am just me and that I cant spend a whole lot of money on presents, and that I just want to be done and over with the season.. call me scrooge!

change

sometimes you just want a change... right now thats how I feel.. I might be losing my job soon.. maybe a move is in my near future.. Ill get a crap job waitressing since it seems to be the only good thing I am good at any more.. that or Ill marry some rich guy to take care of me.. why cant life just be easy? why am I a wandering spirit? why cant I just stay in one place?

I have freinds

get over it! yes some are girls, some are guys.. some are straight some are gay! I dont care, we are just friends.. nothing more.. I care bout you.. I dont care who thinks we shouldnt be friends.. I will be your friend! those who think I shouldnt, I dont give a flying duck!

deceitfulness

why do people betray the ones they care about? every one is full of deceit, lies, and cons. If you want to talk to me dont lie, dont be deceitful, and dont try to con your way out of the situation you put your self in.. This goes for guys, girls, friends, and family. I am going to tell you how it is, if you dont like it, walk away, please extend the same courtesy to me. I am a good person, and you can be too...

being sick

I so hate being sick!! I hate the way I feel, the food I eat, and the way I sleep... Have you ever noticed that comforting foods are so not good for you? when I am sick, I dont want chicken soup.. I want some bread, cheese, fattening things.. I get lazy, and dont work out like I should.. I had strep 2 weeks ago, and now a sinus infection... I think I have gained some weight this week... better get my butt into gear this next week to lose it... and need to go to the store and get me some more healthy food..

cali

I get to go to cali!! I am so excited! I leave in less then 24 hours! I will get to see friends!! I dont want to do the other stuff... but if that is what I have to do to make it to cali Ill deal with it... I just hope its all over and done with quickly and hassle free! wish I was going for longer, wish I could see more friends.. oh well Ill get to see the important people..

wishing

I wish I was rich, non single, had my life together, and things were not complicated. I wish I could see what was to come in the future for me, so I could just know that all of this is going to be worth the crap I am going thru now... I wish I had a job I like to do, better yet one I just made enough money to live off of. I wish I was close to my best friend and I could just see her all the time.. I wish I didnt have the choices I have now. I wish it were simple, I wish it were different, I wish it wasnt me..

bored

I am bored with things the way they are going.. I feel like I need a change.. I get this way every 6 months or so and I up and move across the country when I can. I dont want to move this time, so that is good news for my family.. I am happy I get to see my family every few days, and I am glad Ill be able to be with them for the holidays coming up.. so why am I so anxious for something to happen? Is it that I need to find me a guy? a new job? I dont know but something has to happen.. and soon