wishing

I wish I was rich, non single, had my life together, and things were not complicated. I wish I could see what was to come in the future for me, so I could just know that all of this is going to be worth the crap I am going thru now... I wish I had a job I like to do, better yet one I just made enough money to live off of. I wish I was close to my best friend and I could just see her all the time.. I wish I didnt have the choices I have now. I wish it were simple, I wish it were different, I wish it wasnt me..

bored

I am bored with things the way they are going.. I feel like I need a change.. I get this way every 6 months or so and I up and move across the country when I can. I dont want to move this time, so that is good news for my family.. I am happy I get to see my family every few days, and I am glad Ill be able to be with them for the holidays coming up.. so why am I so anxious for something to happen? Is it that I need to find me a guy? a new job? I dont know but something has to happen.. and soon

this life sucks

why is it that we can never had the ones we want, dont want the ones we have, and need the ones that are gone? I want some one, and I cant have him.. I have so much on my mind about the situation right now, and why couldnt things just be different? things will never be right for me, I will never find love again. I just want to change the way it all happened.