LASIK surgery

For all of those who are thinking about I would highly recommend it! I had the procedure done yesterday. It was very easy and simple! Here is the whole story.... I went in for the initial consultation, watched some video's on how it works, and what the pro's and con's are of it. I then went back the next week, for the pre-op, it was a normal eye exam, with a few extra tests and pictures of the eye. It was very interesting to see the pictures of my eyes all up close and personal. The next step is preparing for the surgery, no contacts or make up for 3 days before procedure. The morning of the procedure I got to the office, they greeted me with a Valium, and then I waiting.. I walked back into the exam room, laid down, and got all comfy.. They calibrated the laser machine, which helped get used to the sound you will here. They covered my left eye, and put numbing drops in my right eye, and propped it open. They then had me stare at a green light, and lined the laser up nice and straight to my eye. Then comes the suction cup to the eye, it was strange feeling and uncomfortable, then there is the sound it makes, that is the scariest sound... it is a slicing sound, yes this is them cutting the flap of your eye open, but you dont feel it, just hear the buzzing of it. The suction comes off, you keep staring at green light, red light moves around lasering your eyes, this last all of 30 seconds to a minute. when that is over, the doctor has a small spongy thing on a stick, you watch her (yes you can see it happening) place the flap back in place, and rub some ointment onto your eye. She waits another 30 seconds to a minute for flap to seal into place (enough you wont blink it out of place). puts more drops in to eye. you then close that eye, and start with the left. The only difference is the suction part of procedure is more intense for the second eye, the nurse held my arm, but I still did a lil twitch. After the doc is done with the second eye, you slowly get up and go to another room. In that room the doc looks at your eyes, makes sure it looks good, (at this point the numbing starts to wear of and your eyes start to itch). The nurse gave me 4 different drops and explained how to use them all. one you use just twice, one for the nap when you get home and once before bed that night. the lubricating drops you put in every hour for 24 hours if your awake. The other 2, an antibiotic and a steroid (to promote quick healing) you do 4 times a day for 7 days. they also give you sunglasses to wear. My vision was blurry, but I could see better then I could without glasses the day before. It just looked like I was looking thru a fish tank. Now, my suggestion get home as quick as you can. I had a 2 hour horrible drive home. My eyes became very itchy, and being in the sun (in the car) made it a whole lot worse, they sun glasses helped, but it wasnt until I got home that I could keep my eyes open for more then 3-5 seconds. I took my nap, and when I woke up every thing was great! Very little blurring, my vision was great, with a few fuzzy or blurry spits here and there. I was able to drive about 7 hours after the procedure. I still rested and didnt do anything. The next day (today) I went to work for a few hours, then off to the post op.. They tested my vision and I am seeing at a 20/20 already. I still have a few lil itchy moments thru out the day, but they said that could be for the next month, and my vision may even improve as well in the next month. Ill let you all know how my next week is..

Make or break!

Well it is about to be made or break... I guess you can always count on something big to push out the best and worst in a person... whats going to happen is all up in the air now.. It can either go one way or the other. There is no going back..

How do you know?

How do you know when things are  going well, or just you keep getting put on the back burner.. How do you know when your in a relationship or just dating? how do you know if your getting serious or just things are going slow? how do you know how fast to move, or how slow? how do you know if you should try to just give up? how do you know if they are the one?

Waiting

Waiting is not fun! Have you ever had to wait for something, anything.. I hate waiting for everything.. I am the least patient person there is.. Have to wait for test results, the end of the book, the end of the movie.. I always feel like I have to read the last page of the book about half way thru the book.. Even when its not my stuff I am waiting for.. I hate waiting! I want to just speed up time and find out.. Lets build a time machine to go look in the future!

cant say no!

Why cant I say no?? what cant I say no to? CANDY, chocolate, caramel, ice cream... anything sweet! I need to say no... I gained 5 lbs back this week... that is alot to gain in a week! I cant believe I did it.. I had been doing so good, lost almost 40 lbs just to start gaining it back... I need to start working it out.. I need to get my self back into a routine, and buckle down.. I need to just bust my butt (literally) I did some strength training tonight.. and walked 30 min today at lunch.. if only I could do this every day...

funk

I am in a funk... I need to go on a year sabatical. I want to to just leave this world for a while. Leave and not have to talk to or deal with any one unless I want to see them! I Hate that things are not going the way I want them to be going. I hate that I am not the nice sweet person that every one expects me to be.. I hate that I have to pretend I am a nice person.. I am mean and I want to be mean.. I want to be able to just do the things I like to do and not have to work or worry about money and pay my bills.. I want to just fast forward to something better.. I don't feel like my life is worth anything.. The only thing keeping me going right now is the encouragement I am getting from my best friend... She helps me with so much in my life, and I would not have anything if it wasn't for her! I am hoping things turn around soon... that is all..

date...

I went on a date.. seems like I have gone on one after another.. but I finally have gone on one that wasnt bad.. I enjoyed talking to him. He was nice.. He didnt try to sleep with me.. We sat for almost 4 hours talking and just having a good time. I dont think I have enjoyed talking to a guy this much in a long time..

21 day challenge is over

The 21 day challenge is over, and I lost 3 lbs I am only 18 lbs from my goal weight... I am very excited to see the results so far.. I can not believe I used to say "oh Im not that fat" but looking back at the pics.. Damn I was that fat!!! I cant wait to see what I look like when I get down to what I want to be at.

you can also look at the before and after pics and video updates at...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qKH4vMfbnSE

21day challenge!!

I am doing a 21 day Challenge!! Today is day 1... I am only 10-20lbs from my goal weight, and after getting fat again from the holidays, me and Megmarkey are kick starting our diets back in to high gear! We are tracking our Calories, and watching our carb and protein intake making our priority veggies and fruit! We are also videoing our progress so watch us on youtube.com search for megmarkey3. We are making a point to exercise at least 10 times in the 21 days, and getting our butts off the couch! it feels great!